Dear Tiffany,
It's been almost two weeks since you've passed, and it hasn't really gotten easier. I still think about you all the time. My heart aches so much for Nicah and your parents. It's one of those nights where I'm having regrets. I am so terribly sorry for not wanting to physically see you since our falling out. I should have made an effort to at least see you while you were able to talk so we could both reminisce about "back then" one last time. Now that you're gone, I have no one again... I'm alone. You were the only person I wanted to keep in touch with from my past because you were genuinely a good person who gave me so many great memories. Now I have no one to share them with.
Sometimes I feel like I don't even deserve to mourn for you, and that I don't deserve to feel sad because we were growing apart anyway. But I feel everything, and I can't tell whether or not I'm depressed because I want to be out there to keep myself distracted, but I can't. We shared so many events that every single thing reminds me of you. I told Nestor so many times how I wish you and I had time to reconnect so we could form a strong friendship again.
Sadly, we ran out of time but I hope you know now that I FORGIVE YOU. I never hated you, and I was never mad at you. I just had to distance myself from those surrounding you. I hope one day when we all meet you, I can tell you this in person, but for now, rest easy my friend. I love you so much Tiffany...❤️❤️❤️
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