01/01/2019

Dear Tiffany,

   When I got home from my party at almost 1:00am, Nestor met me at my house where I was finally able to cry my eyes out. Once I started, I just couldn't stop. I went through so many emotions within two hours, you'd probably roll your eyes at how bipolar I was acting. I went from being sad because of your passing, to being angry because of unfair and short your time on Earth was. I even shared a handful of memories to Nestor to explain how good of a person you were to me and everyone you came across. I admired your kindness, positivity, and ability to get along with so many people.
   Despite my feelings, I was actually happy. Happy to be one of the few who knew you the way I did. Happy because I got to share five wonderful years of being your best friend. Happy because you're no longer in pain. I would have done anything and everything for you if you asked me to. The thing I'll miss the most is how you were the last person...the last connection I had to one of my best memories of high school.
   I know you read my blogs and even reached out to me at one point asking why we drifted apart. I didn't thank you back then, but I should have. You were always so understanding and level-headed, and I appreciated how you took time out of your day to read about what I went through behind closed doors with and without you. Deep down I know you wanted to say "I'm sorry for my part in what happened between us," because I wanted to tell you I was sorry too. Sorry for cutting you off without a warning, sorry for what I said at the last marching competition back in 2015, sorry for purposely keeping my distance for the last three years.
   Believe me, I missed you too...so much. With everything I was going through mentally, physically, and emotionally with Nielsen, I needed a friend...I needed you. We were literally two peas in a pod, and I still can't believe the time for you to be taken from this world has come. There were so many things you still had to do, one being to graduate college. We knew how long it was taking for you and I, but I hope you're okay knowing that it's just me now. I hope you find peace on the other side. It's going to be a very long time until we are all united again, but I'll wait for that moment. The moment I get to see you again. I love you Tiffany. Take care of yourself up there.