Thank God you finally replied back! I was in the middle of training for work but I made excuses for being on my phone. You'd hate it, but I told my boss I was talking to someone important, which you are to me. Basically, you told me a lot of your organs were failing and you had just began relearning how to walk again. You even said you thought it was your time to go. My heart shattered a little bit knowing this. I couldn't believe you were suffering this much and I was nowhere in sight. Regarding our current friendship status, I didn't know if you wanted me there or not, and I was too afraid to ask.
I was happy when you told me your health was slowly getting better, and you hoped to get discharged before Christmas. I was rooting for that, so I can finally stop by your house before or on that day. I just wanted to see you again. Before the night ended, I messaged you a really long text on Instagram explaining everything I felt back on Thanksgiving about you. My God, I was so worried and scared you were going to pass without knowing how I truly felt about you. Though we never really apologized nor took each other back, when you replied saying "I can't simply let go of our friendship," I actually shed a tear. All I wanted was for us to be okay again. Maybe this was that big step into rekindling our friendship to get back to how we were before.
I ended the message saying to let me know if you ever needed anything, and vowing to see you the next time you were home. You liked what I said, and I prayed that day could come sooner. I really wanted to see you.
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